I get the sense that my perfectly organised life is spiralling out of control. My home is my sanctuary and lately i have found that i hate being here. My housemate returned today and while there are three of in the house it has never been a problem for me to feel comfortable here.
Ever since she came back though it has been almost painful to be here. I spend most of my time in my room, blaring the music when i am at home and i take every opportunity to escape from here. I get annoyed htat i cant leave a glass on the coffee table or that i feel that i cant lounge on my own couch in the middle of the afternoon. The most irksome thing though has to be that she seems to feel that she can just helo herself to whatever is in the pantry. Now i am not one to not share and quite frankly i have no issues with u taking my coffee and my sugar or even helping u’rself to rice but the thing with her is that she just seems to take and take but never give. She dinks my coffee but never offers n e thing. SHe hasnt even bothered to buy her own and i pay nearly $15 for my coffee. I’m a coffee nut and i like to drink the best and she just helps herself…i mean WTF???’
I’m not petty…i’m not this person. I love to have friends over for coffee and i love to cook for them and i want them to feel as though my home is their sanctuary too but i just cant feel that way with this girl. I dont know what annoys me more about her, her help meyself to anything attitude or her stingy can u pay back that $8 now. What pisses me off more is that she just expects to join in the festivities. I asked her to by a couple of things the other day fro me from the market. Whens he got home, the frist thing she told me was the total amount is came to. Yes, i have no problem with paying someone back but when i went to do something else she asked ( not 5 minutes later) oh did i tell u how it came to? I mean seriously, why would i not pay u back $8? I’m almost tempted to not share n e thing of mine with her. Maybe i shud tell her how much she owes me for coffee and rice.
I cant take it anymore and she’s only been back for a couple of days. I’m stressed out when i shud be having a great holiday. I HATE being at home and i’m becoming this horrible petty person who i really dislike. And now i am crying!
Where do u go when all u want to do is go home but home is where u need to get away from?
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